Wanting to End it All ~ After Antidepressants

So.... I haven't been on for a while now. I had a very close friend who is more like a Sister to me decide she was going to end it all. We both  felt the same way after we had to stop taking our antidepressant Celexa, because we no longer had an Dr to prescribe it to us. She had been off of her medication for about 2 weeks;  she called me in tears on Monday the 23rd because how she was feeling. We had talked about how coming off of this medication made us feel, and that it wasn't a good feeling. I told her she needed to go to the  Hospital. She said she would be fine and that she had a job interview the next day and was going to the Dr on Wednesday to see about getting back on her medication.

So to get to the point, she got the job and never made it to the Dr's appointment because she decided to check out and end it all early Wednesday morning. This is what she posted:
i tried to write a letter but fb fuckd up, so, i'm going away for awhile now, hopefully to see my maker & i hope he doesnt get mad for me cheating but HE did bring me into this world and made it HELL so if i end up somewhere else, it wouldnt make a difference for me, loosing my bubba is the greatest punishment HE has ever given me & i'm done trying to deal with it. I'm sorry i've made some u upset, but i do have to go, i have no reason to be here anymore....I LOVE YOU XXXX,XXXXX, ALWAYS HAVE AND ALWAYS WILL!!! LETS HOPE I ACTUALLY GETT'ER DONE.......LATE, fckn helipocters are here

The helicopters she is talking about is how it felt inside her head. She had told me she felt like she was under water. So we do have a happy ending to what happened, but the end has yet to come to a complete. She is alive due to FB and friends and family paying attention and making sure she was found before she could end it all. There is still a long road ahead because now the State gets involved. But she is getting the help she needs.

When I went off of my medication due to having to find a new Dr. (which I have an Appointment on Friday) I felt the same way. However as you know from previous Blogs that I would never leave my children here because I was selfish ( not saying that she was, because she felt this is how she could deal with it) and wanted to take my Life. I came up with a little poem to for that to and this is how it goes:
I gave my Children Life...
Now they give me Life...
If it wasn't for them,
I don't know where I would be.
I Love you Children of Mine!

I strongly recommend that if you are ever taking an antidepressant that you make sure that you will not go off of them without the help of a Dr. it causes so much to your Mind and Body that you would never want to go through. I know this because I have had to do so more than once in my Life. I will be talking to the Dr. on Friday and let them know this and make sure we have a plan so that this doesn't ever happen again. I know I feel better when I take them due to the illness that I suffer and I am a Better Person to everyone around me.

http://depression.emedtv.com/celexa/withdrawals-from-celexa.html
Check out the videos, I found them very helpful for someone who might wonder if they suffer from depression and where does depression come from.
However the Celexa withdrawals stated that you are more likely to want to kill yourself or have thoughts about doing it while taking the medication. I would have to agree to that because I did have thoughts about not wanting to be here. However after going off of the medication all at once seem to make the feeling worse.

I hope I have given some of you hope and knowledge to the effects of what might happen when you stop taking your Antidepressant without the help of a Dr. Below find some more links that might be of help.

Depression and Suicide

People with clinical depression are at a greater risk of suicide than people without the condition. This eMedTV page offers detailed information on the link between depression and suicide, as well as statistics and a list of risk factors for suicide. 

Here is a link for someone who is thinking about or for someone who knows someone (Suicide)  www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org

 If someone you Love shows signs of suicide please get them help. Watch for the signs. You might just save a Life.